This is quite weird. Weird but good. Very good. Very good indeed. In fact quite possibly the best thing ever. Hmm, I am not quite sure how to describe this properly but here goes. I feel like parts of my brain are spinning up like hard drives which have been secretly hibernating. There are bits of myself which are waking up which I had completely forgotten about. It’s like O’Brien has been working on the conduits and suddenly all the flashing lights and control panels have come alive again. Cliché alert: it’s like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I can now leave panic mode and return to a more balanced existence. There is a spring in my step.
I have been wound up like a coiled spring for who knows how long. If it has not been one excuse it’s been another. I would quite like to use the word stress but I am not sure whether medically that is the right word. Actually the definition fascists can swivel. I absolutely hate the medicalisation and the accompanying dehumanisation and necessity of treatment of things which are a perfectly common part of the range of normal human nature. Sir, you’ve reached Dep Con 3: bring out the tablets and the men in white coats. Lock down all furniture, take six months off work and give yourself an excuse to be horrible to your loved-ones. Fuck off “medical science” with your Seasonal Affective Disorder and the rest of it. It’s not a Disorder to be miserable in winter. Asperger’s, autism: attributes not afflictions. I thought as a society we had learned our lessons from bygone eras where people were dosed up with all sorts of crap or locked away simply for not conforming to some invented moral ideal. ADHD, dyslexia, Alan Turing. Apparently not.
Actually none of that was the point of this post at all. Having now decided that I don’t need to sit meekly inside the paper bag and realised that I can get on with doing with saying “yep” a bit more I wanted to basically say thank you to some of you for bearing with me. I’m sure that most people think they have good friends but I actually do. I wanted this to be a public recognition of their loyalty in not smashing my face in or simply ignoring me while I have been in this last, slightly disastrous, phase. My flatmate has probably born the brunt of this. I have probably not been the most exciting person to share a flat with recently. Sorry about that. Others have stayed the course while I have been leaning unfairly on them and been a bit rubbish.
I am not going to write about this any more. You have been watching.
Seriously seriously seriously anal, but it’s defcon as in defence condition, not dep con. Otherwise cracking post and I’m glad you’re feeling much better, I know what that feels like!!
So glad you said this, not me. I read it and was going to say it, but thought I’d wait a few hours for at least the first comment to see the lie of the land.
I feel better that I’m not the only sad bastard now.
I HAVE SEEN WAR GAMES Y’KNOW!
So it meant `DEPression` condition – very subtle
I love the spring time too – there’s something so positive about it ….
Nothing wrong with being a miserable git .. it’s learning not to beat yourself up over it
I’m might even go out for a run in the park today .. it’s a lovely day indeed
I don’t know about running SoC but it is a beautiful day to enjoy a walk in our local wood. Spring signs and early flowers await me.
I’m just back … it was great .. running in the woods even better Melv
Goodbye winter blues
Will you two get a room?
@Metcountymounty – I may be being even more anal here, or something, but I think dep con was deliberate, as in Depression Condition… either that or a nifty typo.
“I think dep con was deliberate, as in Depression Condition”
First prize to PRM. First time commenter, clearly ahead of the rest of the pack.
Wooden spoons all round for MCM and ATNS…
in a word – pah.
Whatever way you want to cover your mistake…
I always admit to my mistakes
Shit, I was a day behind and never read the comments properly. How dim is that. (Rhetorical)
It’s the weather.
Partly.
Or it’s a complete sea change in BEs life style!
Let’s hope so, then next winter he can comfort me when I start getting an attack of the grumps again.
Well, that *is* what friends are for
You’ve got my number 118.
Hmmm, wish I felt the same. The job hunting is doing my head in, and don’t start me on recruitment consultants !
Can’t be fun
Just remember there is a light at the end of the tunnel, even if it is around a corner so you can’t see it yet.
I guess so, but this seems to be a very long tunnel
Know anyone who needs any eCommerce operations or senior management staff ?
There’s that computer analogy again Blues…
It was defrag wasn’t it ?
Keep going Old Chap, better things ahead in this state of mind!
I had forgotten about that! Yes quite right
I’m not sure that I’d find it exciting to share a flat with ANYONE so don’t worry about that.
The notorious prisoner Charles Bronson would be quite exciting to share a flat with I would think.
Unless you criticised his watercolours of course.
Proud of his handiwork, was he?
Believe it or not, a few years ago there was yer another hostage situation with Branson (a regular occurrence). This time he took his art teacher hostage after the teacher went into his cell and criticised his painting.
As Otis Lee Crenshaw says, how stupid do you have to be to go alone into the cell of Britains most dangerous man, and say “Charles, you’re not exactly staying within the lines with your crayons there.”
Kind of get what’s coming to you, don’t you..?
I don’t know why I found that so funny but I am sitting at my desk chuckling to myself over that.
EK, you haven’t seen my wine cupboard
I’ve just dug out an old `Sabbath` album – “Fairies Wear Boots” seems to cheer me up rather nicely. Is this a cure for S.A.D?
There is no such thing as SAD! Did you not read the post? Grr!
Black Sabbath, eh? They were Britney Spears’ main influence, were they not?
I spent today burning all the garden detritus I should have in oct,the bonfire was very refreshing…SPRING IS SPRUNG.
Thud, I was utterly appalled to hear a colleague complaining just now that it is “TOO HOT”. Unglaublich.
Pouring over the Pink and Gay News at breakfast – as you do, the latest edition heralds ‘Blue Eyes’ as the favourite Drag Queen name on the current London scene. I am sure many of us would like to convey proportionate congratulations for your part in this covert success story.
Do you mean “poring”. Or were you emptying a jug?
I had a huge cry on the weekend and it rained cats and dogs and then a big weight lifted off my shoulders and now it is SPRING!!!! and soon i will be donning a mini skirt and running barefoot through the tulips WOOT!!
Spend it Like Beckham!!
But don’t start wearing man diamon stud earrings like Becks they look totally gay……..not that there’s anything wrong with being a gay….off to buy shovel to bury self lol
I would look dashing in diamond earrings. I think.
What do you mean, you “would?”
You did. Be proud.
Area you are a true subversive. Please don’t show those pics to anyone.
Don’t be modest Blue and share those Shirley Bassey pics with us. We won’t tell, honest.